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Taking the Leap

Posted: August 28, 2012 in Lifestyle
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“You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.”

Steve Jobs

This post is a little deeper, but it will help you understand my current mindset. 

Here I am, finally a college graduate. I have every reason to be optimistic about the future. After all, accounting is one of the best degrees out there- at least that’s what they tell me. I should also mention that I’ve been accepted into a one year graduate program that will practically pave the way for me to obtain my CPA license. Once I have that, the $100k+ per year salary won’t be far behind. It will be hard work, really hard work, but if I’ve come this far, nothing else will stop me. All I have to do is accept the graduate offer and my journey will begin. But there’s just one problem: I can’t.

There’s really no concrete reason why I can’t accept the grad school offer. I have no real obligations that will prevent me from attending school over the next year. I am living less than 15 minutes away from my potential school- with three friends who will all be attending. In fact, I was so sure that I would attend graduate school that I signed a full-year lease for the house earlier this spring. It will almost be more convenient if I accept the offer and just go to school. Not only that, but it will cost me less than $10,000 to attend. There appears to be absolutely nothing to lose here and almost no risk. This begs the question- What the HELL is my problem?

It’s not that I’m lazy- far from it. I haven’t watched television in months and I spend a majority of my time reading. It’s not even necessarily that I hate accounting, although that does play a part in it. It’s hard to explain- and trust me, I’ve tried. But if I had to nail it down to something- if I really had to narrow it down to one thing, it would be this: it just doesn’t feel right. Simple as that. I’ve always felt like I’ve had this overarching purpose ever since I was a kid, but it was clamped down underneath the weight of constant busyness. I think we all have some kind of overarching purpose, but it is so easily forgotten through life’s tribulations that its disappearance goes unnoticed.

Once I graduated, I finally caught a breath of fresh air and something startling dawned on me: somewhere along the line I had let my real dreams slip away in favor of a more “realistic” life. I don’t remember the exact moment when my dreams faded into oblivion; I think it was more of a gradual process. Years of social conditioning had grinded out my creativity. A belief started to creep its way in ever so slightly- this belief that I was too normal, I could never achieve anything great. But that was okay, I thought, I could still make a good living as an accountant. I could still buy the big house and the nice car and support my family. After 30 or 40 years I could retire to a nice summer house in Florida and live out the rest of my time happily ever after.

But that life doesn’t appeal to me anymore, not even in the least bit. In fact, it disgusts me. I can’t tell you exactly what’s come over me. Maybe I’m absolutely crazy, I certainly wouldn’t fault you for thinking so. But the money doesn’t matter to me anymore. In fact, all the money in the world is completely worthless to me unless I am living the life I truly want to live. Obviously there is a place for financial security, but financial security is not the goal. Financial security is a side effect of purposeful living. I feel like I’ve woken up. I still don’t know where the hell I’m going, but at least I’m not sleep walking anymore.

My Realization

I only have one shot at this thing. One chance. I can give every ounce of myself to my passion; absolutely every part of my being to fulfill my purpose. This is the dangerous choice. There is no telling where it will lead and certainly no guarantee that it will be successful. But I believe that a person can only reach true happiness when they find their purpose and spend their lives fulfilling it. This is the kind of happiness that money can’t buy.

OR

I can continue my career path as an accountant. Of course I don’t know exactly what’s in store but I think I can forecast the basic trend. It doesn’t excite me and I know it won’t lead to true happiness no matter how much money I make.

I choose the first option. I can’t fathom the regret that will overtake me if I don’t AT LEAST try. I will never forgive myself. It’s going to be scary. I don’t even have any sort of business idea yet besides this blog along with a few concert investments. People are going to think I’m batshit crazy-my parents already do. Very few are going to truly understand, and even fewer will be willing to take the leap with me. But I can’t say that I really care all that much. I’ve spent my whole life being average and I’m not really cool with that anymore. I may not have the million dollar business plan yet, but I have unwavering faith that I will succeed no matter how many failures I have to overcome. And I can rest easy, or maybe not so easy, with that fact that I will petrify myself with the idea of a mediocre existence. I will never be content with it. You shouldn’t be either. Take the leap- you might just go further than you think.

“The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized – never knowing.”

 

Jim Rohn